Light at the end of the tunnel?

Who knows...

I am always terrified of imposing on people so try to be pretty much on my own. Also I am very lazy at heart and the couch, laptop, television and cuddling Johns feet is a great combination. Who needs a social life anyway!

But... I lack social interaction.. in my past I was working with long term unemployed people, asking them about their life story and see if I could find links to the real world and devise a career path with them sending them to appropriate courses, education etc. Sometimes it was really depressing because so many people are not happy with their life but are actually not motivated enough to change anything.

Sometimes it was lovely though, I have had people giving me messages through ex colleagues saying that I saved their lives because they went to particular courses and found a proper job, sometimes for the first time in their lives.

Apart from that I was hired as 'supervisor' for the Rotterdam college for human resource management and labour mediation. This meant I had to have weekly sessions with 3 students in this field and talk about their behaviour at work and the feedback they got and how they can improve their attitude and guide them through a process of 'how to become a professional HR manager'.

So much fun.. confronting them with their beliefs, helping them to form opinions and take positions on what sort of professional they want to be.. basically forming them.

Also giving class room training in 'presentation skills' and other 'soft' stuff like communication training. So lovely to see them improve and hear that they want to be you when they finish. :-)

And here I am, different country, different job.

It feels like in the years before I went to Scotland I have used up all my social interactions in one fair swoop since I don't seem to have any at all!

I mean, don't get me wrong, I love John to absolute bits but as an individual I need more interaction and share things with other people... 'flow' with them.

I suppose because I have always got that from my work I was initially thinking of changing jobs again but ... today I thought.. maybe I should do it differently this time... maybe.. I should think of starting to do something social outside of the house and workplace.

Shock horror!!

I know why I never thought of that, it is the 'single mum' syndrome, it is just too much hassle to find a sitter for the evening you want to go out but since my darling boy is now almost 21 AND lives in Holland I think he is ok with me going out :-)

So..

always wanted to go to dance classes again.. when I was really young (16 :-)) I was quite OK at ballroom and latin dancing and all these programs on telly makes me want to do it even more. Mind you I don't want to be lifted at any point ever but having a nice dance on great music.. can't wait..

Apparently it IS possible, even in Greenock, and I have vowed to pursue this and see if I can combine healthy exercise with new contacts, who knows.... watch this space, I am in danger of really having something to talk about.

:-)