Apprehension

This internetdating is good fun you know.

But.. it does make a person slightly emotional unstable because of all the excitement :-)

It is almost time for another 'first time' meeting.

And this time it is as scary as exciting since this guy seems to come from another planet.

Did I tell you about my other planet theory? Generally you meet people because you for instance work at the same job, attend the same school, have your kids at the same school etc.
Most of the time when you meet new people in those areas of life you sort of know and understand them, they do jobs you can identify with (they work in just another office for instance and when they say their jobtitle you think oh yeah, heard of that). Maybe sometimes you will see people that are a bit different but then they do something you understand like make art and you can't help think 'loser'. :-)

And then sometimes.. you just meet someone and even though you have a nice conversation you think 'I can't seem to get onto your planet', their experiences in the world are then so different from yours that you just can't seem to identify but also can't walk away because it is as fascinating as it is weird.

I know that John and I suffered from that, people would look into our lives and we would just feel they could not get onto our planet. We know for a fact that we have been called weirdo's because of that which always made us titter because for us the way we lived was just right. But yeah, different from most.

:-)

So.. this newest internet dating meeting is going to be with a guy that I just can't grasp. I mean I am clever enough to understand what he actually does and where he comes from but I feel that when we talk we really really like eachother but also can't quite place eachother because we have never met somebody like us.

So I think.. this can go two ways can't it, we either love eachother to bits and can't stop sharing so we get a link between those planets or we look at eachother and think 'you're weird'.

Scary.. because then.. what do you do if you have been writing for months digitally and shared deep emotions (and things!) and look at eachother in real life and think weirdo? Do you grab yourself in the neck and say 'get over yourself, get to know the guy, you know he is nice'. Or do you say 'sorry, I don't feel the connection, I am going home'?

Or doesn't it matter anymore this actual physical meeting when you have connected in the mind?

So many questions, so few answers until it has actually happened of course :-)

Well... if nothing else this is going to be a very interesting social experiment!